neverlosemyfocus: (pensive)
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It was agony.

So much had changed since her death; her almost death. Going to the Land of Make Believe, to Univille, the Warehouse, had changed everything. Had changed them most of all. They had exchanged vows, she’d taken his NAME, wore his ring as he wore hers... lived together as husband and wife, with every intention of spending the rest of their lives together.

And now they were back. Returned to their galaxy at the moment they were removed, memories intact. Force bonds intact. To an Order that still found attachments dangerous. WRONG.

Too much had changed; she could not conceive of setting aside her feelings for him, giving him up. She couldn’t. She wouldn’t. And, much to her relief... he felt the same way. So they... pretended. Hid what they felt in the Force, behaved as they had before their journey to another world. It hurt, FORCE, how it hurt, keeping her distance from him. She’d grown far too accustomed to his presence at her side. In her bed. Doing silly little things like curling up together on a porch bench enjoying a beautiful summer morning.

She’d never known longing quite like this.

They stole moments, when they could. With the ability to hide their presence, their emotions, in the Force, it made matters just a little bit easier. But FINDING moments to steal, in the Temple, with the war, their missions, was difficult. They were separated far too often. For far too long.

But they were Jedi, and they did what they must. They knew what was coming, now; maybe they could change it. Keep Anakin from Falling to the Dark Side. From becoming Vader. Keep Sidious from becoming Emperor. Whatever happened, she would be at Obi-Wan’s side this time. He wouldn’t go through it alone.

Duty didn’t make it any less painfully lonely, lying in bed in her quarters at the Temple, without him by her side. He was her husband... and she had to continually pretend that he was nothing more than a friend. And an often frustrating one at that; which he was, of course. Marriage hadn’t changed that. He could still frustrate her more than anyone in the galaxy. But he was so much more to her, as well.

And no one could ever know.

Which was why her next mission was a welcome one. A two Jedi team was being sent to a planet to investigate reports of a Separatist plot to take over the shipyards there. It was a deep space mission, and she was one of the Jedi assigned to investigate. The other... was Obi-Wan.

It was a long flight. They would be alone.

With no need to hide.

Date: 2015-02-16 02:43 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi suspicious)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
He was nervous to let his walls down while they were still within ten parsecs of Coruscant. Masters Yoda and Windu were powerful and perceptive and he was fairly certain they suspected something already. He kept his eyes on the readouts and his mind on the controls as the ship moved out towards the starstreaked blackness of hyperspace.

Date: 2015-02-25 02:18 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi looks)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
He frowned in confusion when she threw off her harness and then went...somewhere else.

"Where...where are you going?" he called after her.

Date: 2015-04-19 12:46 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi perturbed too)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
"I... oh." He frowned, but more in thoughtful confusion than anything else. "Oh. I see."

Date: 2015-06-09 01:43 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi concentrates)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
He focused on the controls until then, watching the distance, in particular, between the craft and Coruscant. It had been a long time since they could even really spend time in the same room, much less together as they'd become accustomed to. He glanced over his shoulder to see what she was doing back there.

Date: 2015-06-18 01:32 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi calm)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
He was looking at the controls - concentrating on them - when he felt her return. He smiled as her presence drew near.

"You've returned. We're nearly out of the quadrant. I expect it's safe enough to..." he glanced at her, "do as we please."

Date: 2015-06-28 12:16 am (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi concerned)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
The sudden physicality of it, after the drought of physical affection, startled him for a moment. She was surrounding him almost alarmingly at first, then he fell into the familiar feeling of that and became one with it, touching her in the Force as he returned the kiss.

Date: 2015-07-04 10:56 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi up)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
I try to remember that when you feel distant.

Hiding their feelings was trying and wearying. Letting go of that control was like releasing a long held breath.

Date: 2015-07-20 03:19 am (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi hooded)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
But I can't feel your heart when we're hiding.

He wasn't sure how much longer he could live this lie. He held her tightly, tilting his head back as her lips touched his throat. He would have to choose soon. He knew that. But there was so much work to do...

Did he have the strength to see it through?

Date: 2015-09-12 09:05 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi calm)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
He returned it with equal measure of sincerity.

This mission will bring us close to ending this. Soon we'll have to choose whether we leave.

Date: 2015-09-23 01:18 pm (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi calm)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
He couldn't argue with that. The moments they had were so few and far between. He returned the kiss, his hands sliding to her belt to start unfastening her tunic.

Date: 2015-11-15 01:05 am (UTC)
master_kenobi: (obi intense)
From: [personal profile] master_kenobi
He tugged her belt away, tossing it aside, so he could pull at her tunic, loosening it, trying to get his hands far enough inside to touch warm skin.

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